Making The Decision Myself
Today we're chatting with Lucy from Cambridge! Lucy is currently doing her GCSEs at Parkside School and is part of the Christ Church Cambridge family. It's so great to hear from Lucy about how she is developing her faith and learning more about who God is. We love how excited Lucy is about her relationship with Jesus, and hope you will enjoy reading her interview. MP Team x
Tell us about your journey of faith – have you always considered yourself a Christian? How did you come to make your own personal decision about your beliefs?
Having grown up in a Christian family, I never had the ‘light-bulb moment’ of becoming a Christian. I often wished I had; there were lots of times when I struggled with whether it was my belief or one that I had adopted from my parents without consideration.
I think I was about 13 or 14 when I realised the importance of making the decision for myself – and though I didn’t experience a major change in my life, I chose to give God the reigns and to trust him. I still find this hard (I like the sound of my own plans!) and I have to continually turn back to him for forgiveness, but I am now confident that he is my personal saviour.
How have you seen God working in you over the past year or so?
I think a particular change in my life has been my ‘church routine’ A year or so ago, my friend Rosie started coming along to church with me and we went to an earlier service than I used to with my family. This made a real impact, although I didn’t realise it straight away. Because I wasn’t going with my family, it felt like I was no longer going because I had to, but because I wanted to. I listened with new ears and now go excited to learn things. Although I never disliked church, it was always something I did without thinking about – so now I have made more of a conscious decision to go, I get much more out of it. I’ve also noticed changes made much more recently – in fact it wasn’t until camp this summer that I realised just how different my church and school ‘lives’ were. Although I wasn’t bad in school (I’m a complete goody-goody!) I wanted to hide the Christian ‘side’ of me. God has brought me closer to other Christians at church who’ve helped my Christian life spill out into the week – just like it should!
How does the hope you have in Jesus affect your day-to-day life?
Because of the hope I have in Jesus, things are wonderfully put into perspective for me. I still very frequently stress about mundane things! But I am also able to remember that although GCSEs might feel like the be-all and end-all, they’re not – and God already has my whole life planned out. (Jeremiah 29:11)
It is also wonderful as I can have Jesus as my friend – a constant. It means that even if you’re left out because you don’t go to all the parties/ drink/ gossip all the time, you don’t have to worry – I can remember that a relationship with Jesus and a reward in heaven will be so much better.
What qualities do you respect and see in other Christian girls, and aspire to develop yourself?
I’m really blessed to be in a church with a great group of older girls, who I’ve been able to watch and learn from. I’m always struck by their confidence in Christ. Now I’m older, I realise that life can be tough as a Christian in school, and standing out is a difficult thing. It is really helpful to see that they’ve ‘made it through’ and are still growing as Christians, and it’s a constant and brilliant reminder that God is far better than any earthly things I might be tempted by.
I also aspire to have their servant-heartedness. The older girls have spent time with me one-on-one and continue to do so – they listen and chat to me, whilst continually pointing me towards Jesus. They’re a really help in everyday life and I’d love someone to say the same about me one day!
Could you share with us something that has inspired or encouraged you recently?
I heard a talk at Grafted on Friday about ‘entering the door of heaven’ based on Luke 13:22-28. My leader said that “if you’re a Christian, you are already through that door.” It may sound like a simple thing, but I’d never really heard that before – I often fall in the trap of thinking I have to do things, or that my position changes daily depending on how my relationship with Jesus is going, but this talk reminded me that it doesn’t.
If you’re a Christian, you’re safely through that door – and though you might have rough days, weeks or even months – God has got you and doesn’t want to let you go. By remembering this I can be confident about my status as a Christian always, not just on the ‘good days.’