Taking a Breath
My "default setting" is action. I am always chomping at the bit to get going. I like to do as many things as possible, and preferably as quickly, efficiently and successfully as possible.
It is so often the case that I end up in the middle of a task that is falling apart, or project that is beginning to go pear-shaped, before I stop and realise what I have forgotten. Or really, who I have forgotten: my loving Heavenly Father.
When I stop and ask myself why this is the case, I realise it is because I'm not fully trusting that God is who He says He is. Instead, I am putting my trust in almost everything but God - in my ability to get stuff done, my can-do attitude, my work, my energy levels or my perseverance and enthusiasm. But these things can only do so much for me, before they let me down. My ability to get stuff done wanes as soon as I am distracted by an update on my Instagram feed, or an article about Prince George's shoes. My energy levels let me down when I just sit down on the sofa for a cup of tea, and the next thing I know, I'm stirring from a snooze. My enthusiasm disappears very quickly when I haven't been given credit for something amazing I've done or when I'm criticised.
I desperately need to grasp more fully who God is, and the gift of grace. I find it all too easy to forget. I need to pause, take a breath, go back to square one and remember who God really is. I need to pray that He would imprint His true identity in my heart.
We are children of the King, who loves us more than we can even begin to imagine:
'But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.' (1 Peter 2:9 NIV)
Through Jesus, God gives us the gift of eternal life:
'For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.' (John 3:16 NIV).
Through grace, we are saved, and he has given us the gift of a relationship with him:
'For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.' (Ephesians 2:8, 9 NIV).
He has promised to sustain us:
'Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.' (Psalm 54:4 NIV).
God is powerful over all of creation:
'For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him.' (Colossians 1:16 NIV).
Prayer is powerful. God hears us and is at work in our lives:
'This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.' (1 John 5:14 NIV).
He gives us the Holy Spirit who is at work in our lives every day:
'[Jesus says] But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.' (John 14:26 NIV).
Perhaps pick one of these truths and pray that God would bring it alive in a new way for you. My prayer for all of us, is that God would show us more of who He is and help us totally, whole-heartedly and fearlessly trust in Him. I want my "default setting" to become one of utter love for and trust in God, so that my whole life, and all of the action that it involves, is for Him.
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Emma graduated from Cambridge two years ago, having studied law. She now enjoys working in finance, which comes as a surprise to those who know her. Emma lives in Cambridge and loves being a member of Christ Church. She loves music, food, her friends and Jesus and is very excited about her wedding next April - (PS. Emma is now married! Yippee!).